Its not ridiculous at all, many people struggle to either find the words or to be forthcoming about what it is they're struggling with.

There are a myriad of reasons why this break in communication is present. Sometimes our minds prefer working in metaphors, sometimes we're not all that well versed in verbalising emotions, sometimes its just downright too uncomfortable, sometimes the words just get lost... But whatever it is, its not a negative reflection on you or any of us, it rather sheds a type of light on specific struggles.

When I can't bring myself to be open and honest about my emotions, I use bullet points, that way there's no way it can get lost in any other fluff I come up with.

I'm willing to listen if you're willing to continue, doesn't matter what type of content you come up with, we all need atleast one person who will listen. You're definitly not alone.