Sorry I'm just getting around to this now, been a busy week. I guess one thing that kind of gets to me is the fact that I'm in a I want to forgive and forget kind of mode, like I expect it to just go away, but I feel like it never won't, and it freaks me out. I'll try the things you say and see how things go. I feel like mentally I do have my good days and then some days late at night it really eats me up.