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Originally Posted by Innerzone
 Do I read it right that you do tell people your dx? It's everyone's prerogative of course, but I tend not to. Even being selective about it, there have been mixed reactions. And remember, your dx doesn't ruin who you are -- you are still the same YOU you were before! 
I can relate a bit to your deliberately not being yourself. I've done that some too, but, personally I found that it was too much work and didn't accomplish what I thought it might anyway. I remember realizing at one point that I just had to be me, and they could like it or lump it.
I've moved a lot too (like a LOT --probably almost 30 times, with a fair number being thousands of miles). What Skeezyks says about aquaintances/friends totally describes me, but I can also tell you that places varied a lot. What I found was that places to which people moved… people were more open to meeting new people because they were all in the same boat, so to speak. In places that were well-established…. where people grew up and stayed… not so much. They were already "all set". It wasn't that they were unfriendly so much as I don't think it even really occurred to them. I've been over there (to Ireland) a couple of good solid trips (and love it, btw) and have some relatives (in the rural west). I remember them positively marvelling over how much I'd moved (and how much Americans in general move). The older ones could hardly even imagine themselves moving, whereas younger cousins did move some. Where'd my point go?… Oh. Though we have a lot of the same issues, it is different there and I can appreciate the sort of environment you are in. How is it that you came to move to your current location, btw?
(I went pretty darned hypomanic there -- lack of sleep, then straight into the day as if there were no time zone difference (though 7 hours), then up half the night, still perky as a squirrel, lol! This was marvelled at too.  I didn't know I had BP then despite a couple decades of at it by that point. Had to laugh, looking back.)
No matter where one is though, there does tend to be this experience of it being harder over time. Teens/20's are more social in general. Less responsibility, more free time or whatever. As people get older and have more of the former and less of the latter…it is more of a challenge. Which I don't say to be a bummer, but to say you are not alone.  (And maybe it comes back around as people start to get more free time again??)
And don't forget, you've got us! |
I have stopped telling people now but the only people I told were my neighbours ( we are a very tight knit lot always having parties etc in the summer, all get on very well ) so I thought they would understand. of course part of this could just be my Pure O 'telling' me they don't like me. But they def don't 'pop' in to see me like they do with eachother.
I'm over anylysing .... I know.
Truth be told I do like my own company, and like you Magicsmum hubby is my best friend, I just wonder if my co dependency on him isnt the healthiest either you know ?
we arent really the types to go out on our own, we like eachothers company we do everything together.
LOL@perky as a squirrel
Funnily enough i decided today Feck em all and Im just gonna be me, if they dont like it they can .. well .. feck off !
its not like I run round the place naked or anything, I'm just very liberal and open minded in my opinions and it just doent seem to sit right here.
Its a combination of my upbringing and BP to just say whats on my mind ...
The weird thing is ...
I am Irish, I have ended up living only 40 mins drive from where I grew up. The thing is, we moved to the Uk when I was 14 and I lived there for 20 years so although I am Irish and this is my 'home' I am realising rapidly that those 20 years made a huge difference.
I have often heard people say .. That English girl and someone else will say ... Err she's not English she just has an english accent.
I get on much better with English people, in fact the girl next door to me is English and not once have I come out of her house thinking a) she doesnt like me or b) I shouldn't have said XYZ.
You guys are right thou, I have to just be me, stop trying to act 'normal' ( yes I hate that too ) and really really try harder to stop blabbing ! ( I really need to learn to stop over sharing )
and get more active on here where I fit right in
ps my Family also live in the Rural west .... its a very beautiful part of the country