Recently i have been thinking about how stupid life is and how pointless it is and how they try and trick you into thinking that it is not pointless but it is, and that just makes you angry at the people who tried to trick you into thinking that it wasn't.

Then of course there is the anxiety which doesn't even make life pointless, which would be a 0, but it makes life less than pointless, it makes it an endurance.

it would be better to not have existed at this point. I'm not saying this in depression, just sick of the anxiety probably.