thanks guys (((((((hugs)))))
I really appreciate the replys...im so alone and its nice to have someone reply to me. I was supposed to get my results two days ago however i still have not heard anything...the doctor is phillipino and i fear that since he feels im a hypochondraic and not one of his own he isnt bothering to make my reports even on the top 20 list....thats fine no offense to any phillipinos im just surrounded all by myself in a world of where no one looks like me or talks english half the time...thats why im living with my boyfriend and his parents....I am waiting until march 9th for Medical insurance then i can go see my specialist yey!!! For some reason i feel so ashamed and embarassed that i asked for help that half way through medical examinations i choke and say im fine when im not. Mainly its because i feel alittle better than before and feel like it was just a phase and then when it hits its worst i get angry and irritated and want to go see a doctor. I guess I have to start realizing i can be sick even though i do feel alittle better one day from the next. Im starting to choke though...I dont know if i can see a specialist after all this...im so embaressed i feel like crawling my sick pathetic little body under the covers until i get sick of being sick again...im I weird? Is this abnormal? Maybe thats a key sign i want attention...thats what my boyfriend thinks at times....im just not used to having people look at me and when they attack me i crawl back in my corner where i belong until i have enough courage to try again
Thanks guys you are all so wonderful....
Love, Inny