This is a pattern I struggle with and I don't know why.

I keep making plans to see people I don't really want to see. Friends I don't actually like that much, if that makes sense.

Part of my struggle is related to the fact that I am going through a non-social phase at the moment. I don't really want to see anyone -- I'm happy to work from home alone and casually interact with people I run into on a daily basis.

I'm worried this is caused by some sort of low grade depression or anxiety, so I sometimes try to 'force' myself to be social. I would say it is close to a 50/50 split as to whether I enjoy the outing vs. am sorry I went. I wish I could figure out when my dread is 'correct' and when it isn't. In any case, I usually dread the outing for more time than I actually spend doing whatever with my friend.

I'm not really sure what the 'real' problem is. Is the problem that I don't want to see people? Or that I agree to see people when I don't want to? Or that I try to maintain friendships with people I don't really want to be friends with? It's probably all of the above.

Does anyone else do this?