Hi again bazzinga, What's this "attention seeking"??!!
If you broke your leg would you keep quiet about it, not get any professional help with it, and try to pretend that it wasn't causing you any problems or it wasn't broken with people in your life??? Well facts are facts and what makes your pain/problems any the less worthy than if it were physical???
In fact I'd say (you know I'd say!! ) that your pain is a **** of a lot worse than having a broken leg!!!
As for your T though, it sounds like you feel she isn't really listening to you or understanding "where you're coming from". I've got to say it is brilliant that you're writing journals though, some people find it helps but it can be real hard too. So well done!!!
Just make sure that it isn't just a matter of your T reading them and potentially not "getting" them, adding their own interpretation. If you can talk about them with her that might help a lot in her seeing exactly what you're saying. And it'll be a good opportunity for you to express yourself more with her, with her needing to listen. Do not let her brush things off, you've come so far in letting things out, and that really matters so don't let anyone put you off. Aim for her to be a little more supportive but if you need to look for someone else while you're seeing her that's fine.
But again, I've got to really admire your drive in getting help!!!!! I know it seriously isn't an easy road to travel in working through the kind of things you're going through and it can take plenty of time but HEY you are definitely on track!!! Hang in there!!!
Alison