I thought it was going to go badly because she said holding my hand was uncomfortable for her. She said she didn't like when she sat next to me and held my hand for the whole session! I informed her that it was NEVER for the whole session. Once it was for a long time because I read a speech I was giving, to her. I'm positive it was usually 5 minutes or less!

So, she said okay, we could try it again! She didn't want to sit next to me but pulled her chair closer so we wouldn't have to stretch. It felt safe, just like I remembered. I told her it didn't feel like the child part was so needy, though. It felt different, like maybe it wasn't the child part anymore. I told her I felt guilty, and said if it was triggering her, we could stop. She said, no, it was okay for her! It was only about 5 minutes but that was enough. I said it was a great birthday present for me!

We also cleared up about mistakes. She didn't mean big mistakes at all! She didn't even have anything to say except she's human. I pressed her, and she said maybe she shouldn't have let me email at all since it caused so many problems. I didn't want to get into that argument again.

She said, on the contrary, she thinks I've made excellent progress and she thinks she's done a great (not sure if she said great or not) job with me!!

It was a good session, but way too short, as these 60 minute sessions always are.

She reassured me that I don't have to stop therapy, and the reduced fee is fine with her. I said I think I'm doing some of the most important work now, and she agreed.

When I got up to hug her, she said "a hug too!" or maybe I said that. It was so nice to physically connect with her and I don't feel it was "too much". I told her that I felt she rectified the situation, about the way she took "holding hands" away from me. I had such a good feeling that we could work this out. I "love" my T.