When I was at my worst, I frequently somehow "felt" as if I was standing in the middle of the street screaming as loud as I could, but still nobody stopped, or looked, or cared.

You may not be suicidal, but you are most definitely in crisis. What about one of the hotlines?

Depression Hotline | Depression Clinics

Contact Crisis Hotline | From Breaking Point to Turning Point

There should be a place for us to go when we're desperate....Just to put ourselves in somebody else's hands....

As always, you can PM me anytime.