Dear T,

I have been thinking of just being done with this whole therapy hullabaloo. Ya know, run before getting into the really hard stuff. I'm scared of facing that, and of how I'm starting to feel about you. This whole thing just sucks. More than anything, I'm afraid of the moment you ask the question they've all asked. Will I disgust you in that moment? Or worse, will I cry? Can I handle it again but this time from someone I've come to trust which somehow makes it that much more awful? I just don't know. I don't.
I'd give anything to go back and not have sent you those 2 emails. I hate feeling so damn needy like this. I'm pathetic. More than that, I broke a promise to myself. I think that's why I feel done. This has to stop before my walls get broken down more.

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