He's 11 and as tall as I am. I don't feel it was abuse but its completely out character for me. I have a therapist I saw her yesterday and had a med change. I've seen the pictures and they make me want to SI more. He's never has seen me SI . I'm always behind2 locked doors in my master bathroom. I know if I asked my therapist to admit me I'd be there within an hour no questions asked.

The thing is I've only SI'd 5 x (including these past 2x) in the past 2-3 years and this was the 2nd time in a week. It has always been while manic except now. As a kid I spent most of my free time cutting.