Notnrml, I'm not suicidal, but everything else you said about people thinking your stronger than you are on down was like you read my mind! I just told my friend today that I ought to go back to the psych ward and see what everyone would do without me! And that just because I got out of bed today doesn't mean I'm ok! I feel like everyone I know (in rl not here) thinks that I've got it all figured out, I know how to cope, I'm "so tough" just because I'm not criminally insane yet, or locked up or something so I MUST be able to take on THEY'RE problems too! I sarcastically keep telling them "come back next week, I'm gonna be walking on water!" I don't know WHY, on our good days, people seem to want to put more weight on our backs to pull us back down instead of trying to help us stay ok or get even better.