Sorry I didn't answer sooner.. been busy. I went in with the thought it would probably be my last visit and he could tell. Told him I was unsure about the direction things were headed. I did a little reverse psychology (to avoid offending him) I said that I think he says nice things because he's (admittedly) passive and he's afraid to just tell me he thinks I'm not putting enough effort into therapy.. and he was offended anyhow. He asked if I was calling him insincere.. and I said that's not what I meant at all. I just didn't see the point of him repeatedly telling me he enjoys "our little sessions together" & "looks forward to his mondays" he said he says it to show he's on my side (something like that) and asked if I didn't want him to say things like that. I said it didn't feel right and that it seems like he's waiting for a response but I don't have one. I also brought up a few other issues and he said I didn't have to continue if I didn't want to. I told him I would like to as long as we are on the same page. I also told him I need to stop questioning him about his life and he said he doesn't mind at all. Self disclosure can help.
So we had another visit and I still can't help but connect with him to the point that he probably thinks I'm flirting and maybe I am? His personality (yes,he show it) is so sweet and amazing. I told him the previous session I left feeling really bad.. usually I leave happy. I didn't feel that it went well. He thought it did because he admitted to being formerly depressed. I told him I already knew and he asked if he didn't smile enough (sarcastic) I said he's always smiling but its in his eyes. He said it was his birthday the next day and he's finishing schooling in a few weeks. So I ran out and grabbed him a birthday card and a starbucks gift card (ya I know) because he spilled his coffee all over himself. I don't celebrate my birthday so I picked the perfect card- lol hopefully he is ok with the cards.