Hello Chalmette.
I am very sorry you are overwhelmed at this time. I can sincerely say that when I saw a therapist I thrived because I had a professional helping me to weigh the options that I had in life, and the best possible solution to the problems that I was having at the time. There are also case managers that can help as well if you can not handle things or get the answers or help you are seeking. Just having someone to help guide you in making the right decisions is nice when you know that some one is there to help you and you do not have to feel the weight on your shoulders to have to manage everything yourself. I would suggest calling the therapist and then make the decision of whether or not to see the therapist after you talk to someone. Calling a therapist may be one of the most important steps you take in your life, I know it was for me, and I do well at this time because I chose to go to therapy, I hope one day you feel the same. I hope the best for you in the future. Soidhonia