Yes, keeping my options open is part of why I keep making myself go out! I like knowing that I am not the only one who does stuff like this

I wrote that yesterday just before leaving for an encounter I was dreading. I realized during the get together that I need to just stop agreeing to things I don't want to do. I have a huge problem saying no without feeling guilty and I need to get over it if I want to get anything done during the day.