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Originally Posted by Atypical_Disaster
I have a hard time with this too. I don't know how to fix it but I can relate. 
I feel like it fits what's going on. I can't really deny it anymore so... yeah. Currently I've crashed into mixed and it's not fun at all. I'm hoping the Trileptal can pull me out of this state because god, it seriously really sucks. My thoughts are still racing, I feel just as impulsive as when I'm manic, and a bunch of other crap. I could talk on and on all day but I don't want to bore you all with my unfantastic life so I'm still rambling anyway and oh there's thoughts all over my head right now racing back and forth and all over the line between the point of the hearing off the top head down up whatever. Oh dear. Yeah,. not doing so well. Isn't that wonderful? I have a hard time with knowing where the walking in point is. What does it mean when I collapse into a point and there's nothing left of me? I'm hearing voices, I think I might take my PRN of haldol but I'm not sure.
WTF did I just write? Ohgod, I'm losing my ****! |
Have you been mixed before? My best advice is to stay on your usual routine as much as possible. If anything you're doing feels frustrating, stop doing it and do something else. It may be hard, I get impulisve to the point that I can't stop doing something that's frustrating me even though it's pushing me over the edge. Try to stick to things that are generally calming and avoid anything that you even consider a minor trigger if you can. Just... basically take it easy for the day.
I'm sorry you're giong through this. Just know you can get through it. I don't hear voices the way you do, but, it's pretty common for me, so I understand how much it sucks.