So the last month I have been overly aggressive--which is NOT like me, I'm normally passive. My therapist pointed out that she has noticed many new behaviors that never happened before I moved into the group home. Today we talked about my aggression and found out I have this cycle/pattern.

Behavior that are positive people like me!!----->I feel good----> I get anxious because I have to be good and perfect so they continue to love me------> I feel hopeless and angry because I can't achieve perfect---->So then I sabotage create conflict to push others away before they leave-----> But I feel guilty for it all and want them to love me so I have to make amends and then it goes back to the beginning.

It was just interesting. She copied her notes for me today and so I shall share it with you all.