Okay so I'm horribly depressed after a lot of ups and downs and going on and off my medication. This has been ongoing since around October. It's gotten to the point where I feel like I can't handle anything, which isn't even an option since I am an adult who maintains a household and the needs of my kids.

I look back at my history of relationships and how I relate to everyone in my life and I feel like there is something missing in me that others seem to possess. I feel like I don't get it and want to.

I feel like I need to be hospitalized but then I know that never really helps. I have a pdoc appt on Monday but I have a long work weekend ahead of me. How am I going to do it???! I guess I'd like to talk to like minded people about this relationship struggle. I think I'm also ADHD, but I'm diagnosed bipolar.