I just don't care anymore, I like people I appriecite them and yet I can never be satisfied. Just a self defeating pile or junk I am, don't know what exactly to do with taht....suppose I am just being lazy and should try harder then I would suceed at everything I try.... I wish this mentality of 'youre not trying hard enough would go the f(*** away. I just hate it, it annoys me to no end and I hate it. Almost driving me to the psych ward to be honest as I am sifck of hearing about how terrible it si that some tax money goes to helping people wiht FU**** disabilities that make it hard to function in the so called 'real' world its just BS. A big fat pile of BS even.