it's been a really long time since i've cut.. i've self injured in the past year but i haven't cut in a few years.. there are a lot of things going on in my life right now and i'm feeling very overwhelmed.. the thing that topped it all off today was that my addictions counsellor is home sick.. i haven't seen her in three weeks and it's really taking a toll.. i can't think.. i haven't been able to sleep.. and i know that if i do cut.. my head will clear.. if only for a little while.. there is this huge battle going on in my head.. it's exhausting and making it so hard to work.. please don't get me wrong.. i in no way want to end my life.. i just want some relief.. i'm not sure what to do..