Had A Panic Attack Today
It doesn't take more to trigger the panic attacks i've been having lately and today was one of those days. I ended up punching a hole in my door. I just get so angry inside. Feeling like I'm being left behind and everyone else gets to move forward with their lives and the everyday things we all take for granted that I can't do lately with all this mental crap im dealing with right now. I feel that I'm a real burden to my family a lot of the time, cause constant disappointment for them.

I can't handle anything right now I noticed. Right now, About half an hour after my panic attack, I noticed how physically and mentally exhausted i am after that. It was like I had so much frustration and anger with myself and all these other feelings at once that I felt overwhelmed and i was crying so hard i could hardly catch my breath and as I'm writing this still feel shaky and panicky even though it's been an hour by now.

Writing this here really helps though I think, To just get it out in a healthy way.
What also helps is when my cat Tiger is with me. This is what he does when he knows I'm not feeling good.
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He's really cute and I'm really thankful to have him and my Dog Buddy also in my life, Having Pets really does help for someone dealing with Depression. Here is my Dog Buddy who I love s much.

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He is a German Shepherd/Husky Mix, Very Calm And wonderful Dog to have around and he's very loving as well. And They always seem to know when your feeling sad or something, Theres amazing!

I'm Glad I ended this blog on a Happier note this time