Omg. I'm over the moon. Can't calm down can't focus. Have so many thoughts. Painted today. First time solo first "picture" was my dedication to bipooar. Then I painted a tree. I'm wanting to write again. Thinking about getting a binder and tracking my everything more. I wanted to do yard work but it has dropped too cold it was snowing earlier. I just ate and I'm still hungry. Oh and I've noticed some things. Like yesterday at work there were a few customers very shaddy I was notified they were around the corner from where I was and I was going to go "help" them. Well they saw me and kept going down the aisle and then they turned around and came back and asked for help instead of stealing something. They "confessed" to C. Omg then work doesn't recognize me at the all store meeting. Even though I do so much for that place. But then I found out that its time for my raise. Yay! Then there's the whole want laid thing and my wife is too busy writting to notice. I want noticed damnit. Is that too much to ask? I'm fascinated by the outdoors but I can't go out. I can feel it, the natural world, calling to me. I feel it in my bones. Its talking to me I wish I could be in it. I want to go dancing. I want to go get some more paints and things for that. Ahh..... I can't make it stop. Need to go take my meds but I feel freaking awesome! Gotta go make diner and get ready for bed which I doubt is going to happen on time it hasn't the rest of the week. Had to take a tylenol pm for the past two nights because of pain but I still went to bed 1-1 1/2 hours. Wouldn't have slept without the ty pm. Too much to do....... but at least I'm having a wonderful few days.

Tig