people are inserting thought of suicide into my mind and its driving me crazy i feel on edge like i am breaking down maybe its best to give in to them T says es very worried and to take mre meds but they arent helping i have to go see te pdoc with him tomorrow. but how am i gonna get thru tonight without killing ymself. dont know.

I am too ill to be understood by these so called normal people I work with. Do you ever get to that point where you are talking to people and you see they have never met someone like you and are floundering because your so much more powerful than them mentally, and the clarity and understanding you have of the world frightens them? But you forget they can't see through their fog of media fed garbage and all your doing is making them terrifies of you???

This happens to me a lot. It's why is so hard. To make friends for me personally