Akekaomen,
We don't know each other, BUT I'm pretty sure you're not useless. I understand how it feels to be stuck in a job you want to run from and to wake up in the mornings and roll over because you don't want to get up and go. It is tough. For me, I found a hobby I looked forward to doing in the evenings after work. It helped to relieve my anxieties for a while until I made the decision to change careers. I don't know if that will work for you, but that's the only suggestion I can offer for now.
Big hug!!