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Originally Posted by sweepy62
Wow, im sorry you had a rough session, it seems like she played a very tough love session tonight, but also did some venting herself about her feelings. So does this mean you can have contact again between session? Im sarcastic sometimes in sessions too, and my t knows l like challenges, so she does, but then I hate her for it and shut down, but im the one who suggested it.
I know how your feeling. Therapy is known to rattle up all your emotions then they send yo home for 6 days with coping skills wtf. What we need is a damn venting room with stuff to break.
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I know! I really want to throw paint against a huge wall and make a massive angry incoherent abstract piece of art
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think I can have contact again. But am not sure it's welcome, not truly
I need to think on it a bit and see how I feel.
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Originally Posted by live2ski66
That sounds horrible, particularly since you have an interview tomorrow and it probably screwed with your confidence.
I don't know your history with her, how long, if you like her in general, etc. I had a therapist do something similar once. I was balling my eyes out, complaining about everything and everyone, feeling sorry for myself. I said something to the effect of, "I just want someone to wave their magic wand and make it all go away". She looked me square in the eye and said "if that is what you want, I'm not the one to help you and you are wasting your money". Of course this made me more upset. After I got home, ranted and raved, *****ed and moaned, I started to think about what she said and realized I was being irrational wanting someone to fix all my problems unilaterally. I had to participate in the fixing.
I went back to her and we had a fabulous 8 year relationship until I moved.
What I'm trying to say is let the whole thing digest and see if the interaction had value for you. If it did, great, if it didn't, I would go back to her and tell her what you figured out, how you feel, why you feel it had no value and ask her what her intent was. Might give you an idea if it was a fluke or if you should look for a new T.
Good luck!
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Right now, no I honestly feel tonight's interaction was damaging. I felt I had so much stuff chucked in my face, and she seemed to go back and change past responses of her own which then leaves me doubting other validating stuff she said. Example:
'You basically flipped the bird at the pdoc when he tried to help you' was said tonight. At the time, the pdoc wouldn't prescribe because I drink and take modafinil and diazepam once a week- absolutely understandable. I panicked at cold turkeying off all my crutches and my T was like, that's okay, you simply don't have it in you to give right now, don't feel bad about it, reconsider when you're in a different place etc.
I felt embarrassed and confused.
Maybe I'll change my mind in next few days.
Thankfully, it hasn't screwed with my interview buzz, I'm weird and love interviews and am excited about the job so I'm looking forward to it
