Intesar, I'm sorry for your situation. I wonder, was he your only friend?

People come into our lives and we have certain responses, As time passes that relationship can grow stronger, but then something happens to challenge that relationship and how each person reacts determines what will happen in that relationship.
I think when we react poorly we need to look at why we had that particular reaction.
Why do we feel threatened?
Do we believe that this person has to make a choice between one of us?
If we do believe that, why can't we believe that he is capable of loving both of you, just in different ways?

Your relationship will change. He won't have as much time to commit to being with you, but it doesn't mean you can't continue your friendship. I think if you think your reaction through and find some understanding you should be able to repair your friendship.

You will need to make concessions. Maybe you plan a day each week that you can meet. Maybe you can commit to phone calls at certain times each week. There are numerous possibilities of how you can maintain your relationship.

I had developed a close friendship with my yoga instructor that only lasted 4 years. When I had to return to work after a leave we started private classes. Her style of teaching was what I needed. She was the first person outside my family that I confided in. As time passed our friendship grew stronger. She had dinner with my family and we joked around a lot. We would make each other laugh in class. I really loved her as a friend.

When I was going through a particularly rough time I called her one morning and asked her if she could come over for some restorative yoga. At first she said she couldn't because she had a prior commitment, but she called back a few minutes later to say she was on her way over.

Then I began to notice she was pulling away. At first I thought I was over thinking it, but later realized I wasn't. I gave it that night to think about it and I realized that I jokingly repeated something about one of her family members that at first she found funny, but later asked me to stop. Without thinking about it I said it again during one of our private sessions. I also realized that I might have been putting too much on her because of my illnesses.

The next morning I composed an email saying that I sensed she was pulling away and if that was the case, while I was sad to lose our friendship, I appreciated all she had done for me. I mentioned how much I appreciated all she taught me about yoga and it would be something that I would continue. I inferred that the reason for her reaction was due to me. It was my intent to end this friendship on a positive note.

She responded that I was correct about her needing to move on, but she attributed it to things that were going on in her life.

My response came out of nowhere. While not saying as much I implied that she was lying and the reason she wanted to end was due to me. That precipitated a phone call from her challenging me and stating again it was due to things in her life and she didn't believe she need to explain anything to me. That conversation went on for about 10 minutes. She invited me to continue coming to her class, but I didn't. I was too hurt.

Like you, I had a very different reaction than I should of had. We were very close and I considered her part of my support system. Because of one mistake our friendship ended (Yes, I still believe the breakup was due to me.) when it didn't have to. And, while I started out with good intentions, I REALLY blew it - big time.

Unlike me, I believe you have a chance to repair your friendship. Think about why you responded the way you did and then go hat in hand to your friend explaining to him why you reacted the way you did. Ask him if he will forgive you and can the 2 of you find a way to maintain your friendship. Let him know you still care about him and are happy for him. (And try to find a way to be happy he has found someone to love...in a different way that he loves you.)

Good luck.