I suppose on scrutinizing, I gave the reply I did because I was panicking and upset and wanted to say something that would sound okay to give her an answer. All I really wanted to say was 'Why are you changing everything? I feel abandoned and stressed out because you assure me I've done nothing wrong, yet your actions say different.' Only I couldn't say that in the room. I felt attacked (that was my experience, I know she was not attacking me) and at that stage I felt everything I said was being criticized. So I couldn't really think straight and fashion up a suitable answer, and I was too afraid to frankly say what I really wanted to.

And I really don't know what she said I don't give 50%. Til lately if anything she said the opposite - that I need to go easy on myself and take off pressure about not working harder in therapy. Once she said she wished she could fly a banner over my workplace reminding me how hard I worked Anyway I'm confused because she said this 50% thing and then later on said she knew I was working my *** off in therapy. So I don't know.