Hi Sweepy. I wish I could help you but I am in the same desperate situation myself. I opened the door a tiny bit today and then was panicked and vomiiting for the whole day. I finally called Trauma T (apologizing the whole time of course) where he helped me reframe with "mind magic" by projecting the distressing image on a movie screen, turning off the projector and then pitching it into outer space. Although I never thought I had an imagination, his techniques are actually working a bit. Maybe.

I just wanted you to know I feel for you and wish you all the best.