Sometimes we spend so long in the darkness that we forget what the light even looks like. And our memories of happier times feel more like dreams than things we have experiences. And it's just so sad when you haven't been happy in what feels like forever. Although it' not very consoling, the best thing about mood is that it changes. What you feel this week won't always be what you feel. When I look back at my emotional logs I feel like an entire eternity has passed because just a week ago hopeful and now I'm hopeless and I know if I can hang on long enough, it will come back.

Stay as strong as you can! I'm glad you depended on the hotline when you needed it. It shows amazing strength on your part.