I completely understand how you feel. I come from a large family, but unfortunately we are not very close and I do not have a very many friends. When I am going through life's daily challenges, I feel so alone and especially when I have to make some very tuff decisions. That is one reason why I appreciate having an online network of people who share my concerns and can be supportive. I do emphathize with you, however, hang in there and know that you are not alone.