i dont know how to start this...i dont know what to call it wierd or maybe i'm jus doing something rong but nearly all my best friends have back stabbed me. i had a friend since yr8. he was very dear to me, we did go out but that kind of relationship didnt work out so we TOGETHER decided to be friends...and we were rite it worked out PERFECTLY (well that's what i thought anyway) he backstabbed me. started spreading rumors about me and nearly got us involved with the police.
all this happened last year. we are still friends (i decided to forgive him as i love him too much [just as a friend] and there was no point in having grudges against ppl)
the problem now is, that situation he put me thru impacted my life so much (you cld say it brought me back to reality) i realised that you cld never really trust neone. i mean after that incident i couldnt even trust my own sister or my parents. i stopped socialising, rebelled against my parents, lost my ambitions, my hopes, my dreams. lost faith in everything you can think of. i wanted to be a doctor now i wana leave skool...i wanted to earn money and buy a house for my parents but now i wana move outa home. i LOVED to study now i make excuses to evn LOOK at a book. i hate everything. and i dont know why. i have no reason as to why i do such things. i thought mayb i was jus lazy but i'm not too sure about that. does laziness really mke u hate yo parents??
a friend of mine has been through the same things. sometimes when we talk we connect so well..but both of us are too scared to get close to each other as we fear of what mite become of the friendship we built. she asked me once "who can we trust when everyone is just pretending?" i guess now i know what shakespeare meant when he said "all the world is a stage and people are just players"