It's funny, I had a hobby that helped for a long time, but these days I'm not interested in anything. It's like I've hit a real low in my depression and it happens in cycles. I wonder if the weather is involved, which really is bad because I can't just constantly be held captive to weather changes. Anyway, I used to love making music and listening to music, but my interest has waned over the past year. I had tried, but now that there's this great competition with a great opportunity, I've lost all interest in even trying, so I just submitted old stuff in hopes that it's enough to get a mention.

Well I'll see my therapist today and be frustrated by him, but before that I have to do what I don't feel like doing, be social and function at work. Soon I'll have a new employee to train and work with, which scares me because I'm so depressed all the time they'll probably hate working for me. I'm trying not to think that far ahead though. Planning is important, but painful when depressed because it causes too much thinking about the future and suffering future pain.