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Old Mar 13, 2014, 09:21 AM
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Dont know what happened between, her asking me what I thought my csa nightmare meant to me, and what it meant to her, and what we would be discussing next session. In session everything seemed as ok as it could be. Once I left the session, emotions started coming up, the only reason I disclosed was because I needed to and because I promised my old t I would open up to this new t, and I keep my word.

I picked a nightmare , I disclosed it, except like she said, it was a double layered dream, where it involved my little brother where I was rescuing him, but at the same time, I was a kid myself, the bad person was involve, but, as my t stated, how could you rescue when you were a child, she was right. We concluded this nightmare was mostly about my csa directly, but also had a part 2, leading to my brothers csa.

I guess truth hurts, I wanted to direct that nightmare all to my brother I guess avoiding myself, she veered it back to me, I was fine with that in session. When I got home, I read it again, I got more upset because she is right.

Now I have all these emotions of anger at my t, anger at myself for disclosing that nightmare, I should have chose another one, I dont want to call her, now I have to wait till next wed, I am so pissed off. I am planning to tell her that , that interpretation did not sit well with me, and I really dont need help interpretating nightmares and they are not relevant to my therapy.

Sorry for my posting so much, I m so repetative but i need to get this out, everything seemed ok in that room, once I left and went home, all these things emotions just started coming out of nowhere. Help.
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