Well this morning at 3 a.m. I told my parents I needed to go to the hospital. Reason being is I couldn't stop shaking and I was nauseous and I was extremely anxious yet had so much energy was shaking throughout my whole body felt like I could not cry get ahead so many emotions behind my feelings things if they would have just came because I was so so panicky and so depressed I cut myself on my leg nothing to you put a lot of gaseous I miss you angel and I feel very embarrassed I also feel like a huge failure to my parents and to life itself. I'm only writing you guys cause I feel like I'm shutting down you guys have been so good to me the past few weeks and I'm so happy for that but I can feel my mind slipping away and my body is slowly doing the same thing I've never had this happen to me before so yes I'm scared I know my family will take care of me and give me back on my feet again I just wanted to say goodbye because I'm not sure I can handle talking to anybody for a while goodbye just not mean forever and it most certainly does not mean suicide that's not what I'm talking about here. I just need time and space so I can figure this stuff out but when I come back on here I want to thank you guys for the love and support you show me but I won't be here for maybe a couple months for the reason I'm trying to get better I love you guys are you all of my friend hope you all go to get a member to fight your own fight.

~warm hug from me to you~