Sabra: I use anger alot as a defense mechanism, its full of energy and, it squashes the vulnerability and the fear and sadness, you are right. My old t recognized that and so does this one.

I been smoking alot more cigarettes, my mind is playing tricks on me, it has me believing that, she is looking to analyze my dreams, not to believe me, I know this is not rational.

maybe im looking for excuses, because she is coming close to me an I feel safe, and I just want to push her away from me.