For me the most embarassing thing is that I have all the tools: intelligence, good looks, physically fit (albeit a bit skinny since I've been sliding for months), beautiful children and friends who love me.... but when I get into this particular state (I think it's mixed because I'm not really sad, just scared and confused and avoidant) I fall apart and everything I've built slides because I can't seem to get out there and manage it.

I feel like I'm missing an important piece.