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Originally Posted by sweepy62
Sabra: I use anger alot as a defense mechanism, its full of energy and, it squashes the vulnerability and the fear and sadness, you are right. My old t recognized that and so does this one.
I been smoking alot more cigarettes, my mind is playing tricks on me, it has me believing that, she is looking to analyze my dreams, not to believe me, I know this is not rational.
maybe im looking for excuses, because she is coming close to me an I feel safe, and I just want to push her away from me.
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sweepy,
I don't think you are looking for an excuse. I believe you working hard and sometimes it becomes overwhelming. I absolutely agree that when I would disclose something that made me feel too vulnerable, my defenses started immediately.
You could be doing the therapeutic alliance dance. It is always a back and forth experience, especially in the early stages. I know you had a good alliance with your first T. Can u look back and see if you had these same feelings with him?
Regards,
Sabra