Granite... what you originally told her was honest. It would have been better if she was around because you could have possible called her. You are not stupid...

Have you ever considered that maybe "boot camp T" appears when she is angry at your family for how they treat you and not at you?

Once I told something to xT and he sounded very serious and angry and I started to have that "I'm a five year old again hiding under my bed" feeling that I get until he sort of explained again how angry he was at the person who did that to me...not angry at me...

just thoughts...