I understand what you're saying Pierro.

I was careful with who I asked with the limited resources I had... but I bit the bullet and did it... so yes, in a lot of ways I had it coming to me

Probably didn't help that she goaded my pride slightly (stupid of me to not be stronger, but I don't want to in a battle of wills with her at this time), saying that in her whole time being a T she has only had 2 refusals with this task.

Personally this is not homework I would consider helpful for me at this stage... my self confidence can be pretty fragile... and though I bull myself through situations as best I can... this was a little too close to the bone (in terms of the task) than I would have liked... but if I can keep my head on my shoulders and try not to slip into a spiral, it will be something for my T to untangle and perhaps it might be helpful in the long run.

Trying to find positives out of this.