Ahhh. Yes it's ridiculous how your mind can turn into your worst enemy. Seriously, we all have enough to worry about without being paranoid about what other people think. But yeah. My mind used to be like that but I think it gave up for now haha.

You are most definitely not alone in how you feel so don't feel bad about it. You're just sensitive to the issue. Just work on it little by little and then you'll eventually be able to stuff your face in public like I do lol (actually maybe you don't want to get to that point haha it's kind of terrifying how I eat burgers but that's because I have bad manners when it comes to grease food haha).

You can do it!