don't give up on meds. I tried several antidepressants before I found the right one and then that one worked like magic. just make sure to advocate for yourself and don't suffer on one too long if it is not working. there are so many out there of different types, insist on trying them all if you have to. one of them is bound to be the right one. I am sure drinking isn't helping your situation. alcohol is a depressant. it is only going to make you feel worse. try to find a different way to distract yourself.