l feel really hurt this week.

My last T session last Thursday was hard, l Was feeling realIy low to the extent my T said he was around that weekend it l needed to see him.

My life is fairly chaotic and l know l take on too work and l found that l had double booked for my T session.

l emailed him to explain and he replied saying that he would see me the following week, but if things changed he would arrange a mutually convenient time this week. l replied and said l would come if he could let me know a different time.

That was on Monday and l have heard nothing since.

My rational head is there with lots of explanations, but deep down l am very hurt and confused.

l gather that if l can deal with these intense feelings triggered by T, on my own, then actually what is the point of therapy. Right now it just seems to be adding another layer of pain to my life.

l have spoken so often of quitting but never doing it, right now that seems to be a good option for me. Yes l still have things to work on, but l can get another T who doesn't trigger all this stuff

My next session is next Thursday and right now l need courage and bravery to quit, l do think it is the right thing, although it also makes me want to cry, l just can't deal with these feelings it evokes.