if you really want to move past this, being honest with t is the best way to do it. writing a letter to t is the best way to get over the hurdle of being afraid to approach it. if your worried about having to talk about every detail of the letter, don't write a detailed letter. just write something like "I have been counting excessively and I don't know how to talk about it. im afraid of your response." that will be the ice breaker you need to talk about it in therapy. take care.