One last thing: she did say she doesn't know how to handle stress and thinks she has a problem. This isn't the first time she's shut down. She'll force herself to be early to work even though it's unnecessary and causes her much grief. If she doesn't work out twice a day, she feels worthless. She sets a high bar, a very high bar. She used to tell me that I made more leisure and she loved it, but then she would relapse hard. I never meant to change her. Frankly, I'm better at work now because I liked her work ethic.

I've always been the type to be transparent and aggressive early in pursuing a girl -- say what I want, do what I want, act indifferent -- because I have been. Now I finally like a girl and don't know how to shake it.

Btw, typing this out has been medicinal, and I appreciate all input.