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Originally Posted by Leah123
I wouldn't even call it transference, to me, though I understand I don't have all the details, your reaction was totally understandable given how she changed the parameters of the contact so recently, and let her exasperation show through in a place that's supposed to feel safer, and seemed to make a major flip-flop as to how she thought you were progressing in therapy. I'm sure she had her reasons, but don't discount your perceptions. I'm so glad you're going to talk it out. I hope it heals better than ever. That's the only upside of ruptures sometimes.  |
Oh I'm definitely not discounting my perceptions! I'm far too stubborn for onw thing and also, ironically, she's the one who taught me to not rubbish my own feelings
I will be making notes with the things I thought were off in bullet points, and bringing them to session to make sure I can organize my thoughts and articulate my feelings exactly.
Why I mention transference is because I realized today that I was so afraid she'd banish me forever if I kicked back in any way. I think a lot of the stuff she was saying was reminding me of REALLY bad things. Like rows with my mother.