Ok so I've been on meds for 3 years and I've been going to school. I didn't work because I was still fearful about becoming under the delusion that ppl we're talking about me. I remember how bad it got with my last job so I avoided it all together. I used school as a way to ease myself back into society. Here I am now and I have a dilemma. For reasons I'd rather not discuss I cannot work a paid job yet. I was looking for an unpaid internship to work this summer after graduation while my psychiatrist lowers and possibly takes me off my meds. The problem is that the place I was going to intern at no longer offers the position. I was going to use the internship as a cover up to people who I know but don't know about my struggle with mental illness. But now I can't. I understand that I can volunteer somewhere until I'm stable on a lower dose or off my meds but what am I supposed to tell people that ask me what's going on with my life right now. I can't think of a polite response that tells people I'd rather not talk about it. If this is a dumb post I apologize...it's almost 3 am and this just hit me. I'm open to any suggestions.