I ended up discussing my issues with my current T toward the end of my session with him today. I started by telling him that I had spoken with my former therapist and that she had advised me to not simply terminate but to discuss things with him. He said it was not his intention to make me feel like he didn't trust me or that I was a good person. He says he was just making a standard statement because he couldn't be sure I wouldn't say anything violent given "the state of the world today with mass shootings and such." I believe him and I accepted his explanation. He went on to state that I should feel proud that I shared my issues with him because I have a history of leaving relationships randomly when I feel hurt and simply cutting off the perpetrator(s), not allowing them to explain themselves.

Later I told him that DBT is not something I feel will work for me as I am not easily distracted and that the other method he was using was working fine for me. I also let him know that it's important to me that I have a therapist who is assertive and who can reign me in as I am very strong willed and this can mean rambling when real work needs to be done and serious issues need to be addressed. I let him know that he has been good about checking me for that but that he needs to feel free to really halt my ramblings and make me dig deeper.

He seemed receptive to what I share with him and said he'd be willing to work on things. I am thinking I will give him another chance even though deep down it feels like he might not be a good fit because I can tell that I unnerve him and he really just doesn't want to lose me as a client. His body language says he really wants to help me and he is sincere but that he really isn't comfortable reigning me in. I told him that my former therapist listened to me talk during our first session and when I finished my long spiel she looked at me, adjusted her glasses and said: "that's all good well and fine but I think most of what you said is pure bullsh*t." She was very assertive and was able to see through my facade and because of that we treated what led me to her successfully. My current T is more gentle; we'll see what happens.