Its not just you. I've never been a big journal keeper, but have some notebooks that I have written in when I've been in the darkest parts of my mind. They are stream of consciousness, but full of ideas, sketches etc. Many of them I don't remember even doing.

When the mind is in pain, it has to release it somewhere. Why creativity peaks at those times I can't answer. Writers, musicians and artists all have their share of people whose best works were done during times of depression and despair.

I'll have to look up your writing.

sam2