tellybox,

I'm so sorry to hear about everything. It's so hard to get over a serious relationship. I'm still trying to get over one myself and it sucks. :-( I keep going over the things I did wrong. And right now I'm sitting at home alone while I know my ex-lover is out and probably with someone else. It's horrible. I feel for you. I don't blame you for worrying about your ex's behavior, but bear in mind that people do stupid things when they first end a relationship. She probably just has to be wild for a bit.

I like what howohsocliche said about finding something to get out of the negative experience. For me, I found that I have a lot of trouble communicating how I really feel and that I avoid all the serious subjects. Now I'm working on that with a therapist and hoping that on the next go-round I'll be a lot better at it. That's my hope anyway.

I can relate to wanting your ex back! It's hard. But you'll get through it eventually. Keep posting and maybe we can help you feel a little better. Or at least we can commiserate. :-/

Sidony