Something, I promised myself that I wouldnt do was to need a new t, when my old t left, I would fight this damn feeling, and I think I am failing. Yes you all must be tired of my postings, and its ok, you dont have to answer, I understand. I am just venting.

6 sessions in, and I am holding back from calling her, because all these feelings are coming up, I need need and need. Its all this little bit of trauma talk I disclosed I guess, and stuff.

What the #%$# is a call going to do, just provoke more needyness, Im not going to give her that satisfaction. This disclosure session, has provoked more nightmares, which I know its normal.